Age of Aquarius
ok, maybe not really, but i thought it would be a schnazzy way of speaking of the new year, 2006. Happy New Year everyone. oh by the way, the Age of Aquarius, according to various astronomical and astrological calculations should commence in the latter half of the 21st century to teh begginning of the 22nd century, depending on who you talk to.
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anyways, i hope everyone's new year's eve was somewhat eventful. mine was as good as it probably gets here in houston for me. being not really "my" town, in the sense i only reside here a small fraction of the year, i don't have many friends here or people to go crazy and paint the town with. but before i get "old", i'll do one of those typical night out on the town and finding yourself in a gutter the next morning kind of experiences. haha. it's like the thing about doing a typical "college spring break" in cancun or daytona or something... it would be nice, but who knows? anyways, i had dinner with family and some of their friends and while the old folks got wrapped up with the karoke (yes, my folks are big into karoke), i watched some dvds with my cousin and a friend of hers. and not to be left out of the drunken revelry of the evening, i crashed our "bar" (actually just an old but large stash of liquor from ages ago when my parents had a little liquor store outfit...ages ago) and popped a bottle of moet and had tropicana on hand and voila, mimosas. of course, since i only had "grovestand" tropicana, i soon just decided to take the moet just by itself which is no problem. me and my bottle of champagne... heaven.
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after watching a movie, we watched the Times's Square festivities on TV like supposedly a billion people in the world. i wonder how they make that kind of estimate, a billion people? that sure is a lot you know. think of what we could do if somehow you could harness "mental energy" and you'd use uber commercialized feats like New Year's Eve at Times Square or say the SuperBowl, and transorm that concentrated energy into well... like electricity. we could put our lemming mentality society to good use. hmm, sounds one step removed from matrix, but anyways, my mind was just wandering again. they would never be able to harness my mental energies, being an ADHD fool.
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after the NYC countdown, i did something i have never done before. i text messaged like a billion people. ok, maybe not a billion but almost every joe schmo in my celluar phonebook... ok, which is like 30 people. but still, it was kind of cool to have my butt vibrating every five minutes from people replying to my salutations, via text message of course. thinking of which, a billion people can all watch one thing, but not one person can pick up the phone to vocally say "happy new year". we are in the age of aquarius. ;-)
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ok, so now we have to do central time zone new year's eve countdown. think of those blokes in LA, they could party like four times dude? actually i was telling my cousin that when i become rich and famous, i am gonna charter a "party jet" and fly from NYC to LA, so all my peeps and i can do a toast in the sky over every time zone at the appropriate time. so all ya'll out there, start being nice to me and you might just be invited. hee hee. seriously though, wouldn't that be cool? you'd totally have to get one of those terrorist doors on the cockpit though.... for psycho drunks that is...heh heh. well, my cousin wanted to see what was going on "downtown" in houston, eventhough I could have told her that everything was probably "inside" in the sense that they were club parties or bar things. nothing "public" that is. but she figured downtown with it effluence of night life would probably have some vibe going on the streets. so we drove over there and there was some stuff as in people walking to clubs and bars... but nothing specifically in the streets though. but all the residual christmas lights were pretty and we passed our new year's eve countdown in a car at a stop light. cute.
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its ok, i was still buzzing on a whole bottle of moet at that time so i wasn't really complaining. anyways, after that debacle we made it over to chacos which is this cute little tex mex place that is like open 24 hours and a big spot for after club revelers because of the good margaritas you can get there and the cheap freshly fried tortilla chips and pretty good salsa bar (although it has sort of diminuated since i last remember). the two of us and a friend of her decided to have a chip and salsa stuffing contest cum maragritas and that would have been lots of fun except for a loudspeaker announcing order numbers ready that sounded as if we were at a train station... that is the intercom sounded like the train. after a while it just gave me a headache but ironically it also sobered me up despite the margaritas and good thing since my cousin who had drove before was on her way to getting semi-plastered. we took as much audio torture as we could bare and decided to call it a night.
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and that was my new year's eve night...psuedo fun. nah, actually it was pretty allright. i got home fine but i think the margaritas hit me right after i laid down to bed, clothes and all. i woke up the next morning with the lights still on and sun beaming in the windows, one of those situations where you wake up all dressed, get changed into sleep wear and then go back to bed. haha, love it.
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and so today is the first day of the new year. eventhough i don't really take much heed to new year's resolution let's try em out eh? and to write them down in purview of all of cyberspace might make them more attainable in the sense that now all my peeps can be like, well.. that's not helping your new year's resolution out. alas...
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so like everyone else, i could stand to lose some weight. but let's be realistic. i'm right now probably like errr... 175 give or take having used the bathroom or not. if i can lose get down to 165 and like...stay there, i'd be happy. so resolution #1... lose weight to 165 and stay there. now the problem with resolutions is that they are sort of liek ultimatums without instructions. so what are "mini-resolutions" that will help. my folks have been lately really getting on my case about all the soda i drink... so maybe i should watch that. so ok... no more soda this year, unless it's in a cocktail...haha. actually with that move, i think it might actually be possible to lose this weight.
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unrealistic new year's resolution? ha... get a six pack (realistic? get a six pack of beer)
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resolution #2. since i am graduating, i will soon be in the thick of the finding a job process. resolution #2 is to be smart about it. lately alot of people having been asking me where i will be after graduation, boston, new york, houston, etc? eventhough where is a big question, i think i should really think about what, that is what kind of job will really help me in my goals. for a while i have already been telling myself that my main goal above else after graduating is to streamline the process of getting my license asap, and at most before i turn 30, which being 27 when i graduate, isn't that far off actually. so yes, my resolution is to be smart about finding a job where i can relaistically see myself being able to start my licensing process within a year at most (since i ideally have only about 6 months of "needed" credits left) and then get that license within another year (since the testing probably takes a few months at least). So ideally we are looking at getting my license at 29, six years after graduating... and well 30 is just when i know i need to get an self- ass kicker machine. i hate reducing my life down to numbers but you know, it kind of is like that actually... or at least its one way of thinking about it. resolution #2... get a job that is gonna take me somewhere. there's no more time to bull-shit anymore.
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unrealistic new year's resolution? find a hot young sugar daddy who falls desperately in love for me and will provide for me forever. .... la de la la... i ain't saying she's a gold digger.
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resolution #3. make some headway with the folks about the gay thing. ok, i really need to face this soon because i'm really beginning to feel like they brainwashed themselves now. in not talking about it all these years since i "came out", i think they made some turn in the past to make up their own reality and now, believing i am straight are curious when i am gonna get married. my mom the other day was saying that if i didn't get married by 30, she'd "kick me out"... uh? i am thinking... hmmm... ok? if i am still leeching off of you at all by that time, i'd kick myself out...haha. but seriously, they want to see something happening.
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and in some strange way, if you think about it... the general concern i guess i could understand, and well... share i guess. i'm turning 27 this year, and i think i should at least be starting to think about having at least a more serious relationship with someone...jeez, anyone...haha. no seriously, i've had a handfull of boyfriends already, most of them probably too short of experiences to be really called "boyfriend" realtionships by most people, but still... the point is, i need to "try" to do something longer. problem is i am not sure i'm "ready" for it though. well, i am sort of conflicted about it... mainly because i haven't really met anyone that makes me want to make that "leap" (yes, i think ultimately, its just if you think its worth it to be "ready", but you never really are). dates here and there, and some moments of..... hmm, you're nice... but nothing to make me really consider...calling him back if he doesn't.... you know.
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anyways, my point is... not that its a "resolution" but if i could find that guy i would want to have something more serious with (sigh... timing....sigh) than it i at least could be more sure of how to approach my folks. i mean, i guess its sort of harder to go against the grain when you don't even have anything to really show that you're going against the grain with, you know what i mean? at least with a "boyfriend" i could take home, there would be something concrete, someone they could despise at first but then grow to like. hmmm, that's how i've always pictured it, a great guy that's just has a great personality, a charmer who can win my folks over. but ok... resolution wise though, i got to weed kill this silly hetero thing they've got growing in their minds. because the possibility of that i see is even less than being a old crabby lonely gay fogey... haha. resolution #3... come out AGAIN to my parents... god, and once wasn't enough. hmmm... strangely though i should wait until after i graduate, just in case the "ride" risks to be evaporated. gotta be realistic.
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unrealistic new year's resolution? you know i dunno how to phrase this supposedly tongue in cheek jab? because on one hand, the whole coming out redoux is itself unrealistic...and on teh other hand, the extreme of mom and dad paying for my gay wedding is dreamy as well. oh i know what's an unrealistic resolution... knocking myself over the head and realizing that all this time i was actually straight. ha! eewww...
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health...check. work...check. love...check. that's about it i guess. little resolutions? get a "high pass" in studio if i didn't get one this time. continue doing my outreach work and get some real intervention moments. go to more of those lgbt things and get to know more gay people....friends are great. design my parents' retirement house...again, this time though with topographical and site relevance...and realism. enjoy my last semester at GSD, my last semester at grad school, and probably my last semester...as a semester. ahhh, another page of life being turned.
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a guy i hooked up once who was a little older, mid-later 30's i think told me once that the best part of "his" life was his late 20's. he said that they were good because everything began to "gel" then... work, life, love, family, etc. sigh, so i await.
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have a prosperous new year everyone, 2006 style.
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