Resolutions
it's a little late to state the whole new year's resolutions thing but well, what can you do? but before i get to that, let me talk about some other resolutions that have transpired since i last wrote. well basically, the whole boyfriend drama. so from a previous post i guess it seemed i was pretty bent out of shape about the whole situation last week with ron... and to be honest i really was. that night when i broke down and just bawled, it really was because i think i had been going through an emotional rollercoaster for weeks already. and the stress of the holidays didn't make anything any easier. that weekend was pretty rough but i was getting better already... time does indeed heal all wounds. anyways, i didn't hear anything from ron on sunday night... last we talked was friday or thursday when he mentioned he wasn't coming into houston.... making me pretty bummed out obviously. well that whole weekend, like i said, i really was thinking i had fucked everything up with an overall... great... guy.
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alas, he called me on monday afternoon at work. i missed his call but he left a message explaining that he was going to call sunday night but something last minute happened, but he wanted to make sure that i didn't think he was mad or anything (which i did... haha). i can't express how much that message made my day! we eventually touched base later that evening and had a looooong talk... probably the longest i've ever had with him on the phone (haha... an hour) but still... it was good. we got an opportunity to clear the air about the whole previous issue and then just talked about our weekends. he had his grandmother's 90th bday and attending to a whole cohort of old ladies... haha. i had my weekend filled with coming down with a stye in my eye, making me look like a goldfish in one eye (good thing he didn't come down) and also getting moderately burned on the neck... bumped into a hot light and the bulb fell on my neck and rotissering my neck a little.... FUN! but we talked... and after our conversation i just felt good and felt that i had weathered a storm of sorts.
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we talked on and off through the week and then when he came in this weekend... this was a weekend we definitely needed... his roommate was not there! for three days it was pretty much just the two of us. it honestly was just... nice... you know... just nice. funny story, but i actually thought up the idea of getting a motel room friday night to ensure privacy... and we did... and it was actually kind of fun. later on we realized that the roommate may have not even been home this weekend. i dunno... maybe the stars were aligned or something and we had this weekend just to ourselves. we had dinner on friday night, spent the night together at the hotel. then saturday during the day went off and did our errands before watching a movie on saturday and then spending the night together again. sunday, we went to have brunch with esau and some friends... silly little couple... haha... and we went to IKEA because he needed a new desk. nothing really special but it was special because it was just him and me.
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and funny revelation... apparently my concern about the roommate may resolve itself. apparently ron handed in his 30 day notice that he would not renew the lease on the house they rent together... so basically he's decided that he doesn't really need a place here in houston since he spends most of his time in Tyler anyways and he'd like to save some money also. he said that before i move in to my house in march, he'll just get a hotel room for the weekends and then when i do move in... well, he'll stay with me. in a weird way, i'm happy about this but weirdly concerned a little. but then again thinking through this... if "i" am the reason he's coming back to houston on the weekends... its obviously because he wants to be with me... otherwise he wouldn't come back.... and therefore doesn't need to rent a place... because why have a place, pay for it, when you only live there two days a week. of course.... i'm wondering how that will really make us somewhat of a "commuting" couple. well, it's worked in a way for three months... let's cross one bridge at a time as they say. and anyways... i've been spending every weekend he's here at his place.... its only fair i guess to return the favor. haha... it does make me happy to have a weekend boyfriend though.
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in just a random moment i asked him "you know what yesterday was?" (yesterday was our three month "anniversary")... without a blink he said it was three months since we first met.. and he said he was going to mention it when we talked the day before... but since i didn't mention it, he'd just let it slide. haha... my man is sweet.
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lying in bed one morning, i caught myself just looking at him sleeping and thinking how sweet he looked, and how sweet it was we were just there. obviously... i'm into this man. so i'm thinking i should have some "resolution" about ron... something like... i dunno.... haha... break my LTR record?.... which if we're conservative...i'd have to date ron for hmmm 3 and half months (god...sounds pathetic doesn't it? oh well) .... and if we're ultra conservative, me and ron have been only REALLY dating about two months... so hmmm... 1.5 months more... puts us at March 1. haha...
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so resolution #1 (in no particular order of importance).... grow my relationship with ron... actively work on the things i know do not help a relationship... and work on the things that do help it. i think ron is a great guy and i could really be something special with... but i've realized.... it takes work, patience... faith. and if i can hold it out till March... or let's just say till i move into my house (march 18)... then i can have at least the selfish conceit that i have moved something of a step ahead in my search for a "mature" relationship.
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resolution #2 (speaking of moving into my house)... learn to take a breather once in a while when it comes to the house. be comfortable with the idea that yes... you might still have to work out some details even after you move in... and that will be part of the fun of having your OWN place. if you get everything done... it'd get boring and you'd want to change it again... you know you would. so be OK, with just taking a break sometime... and do thing when you want to do them and if you don't... its OK. NEVER let it pull you down and NEVER EVER take it out on those around you that only want to help and care about you to begin with.
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resolution #2.5 ... have a fabulous HOME when you move in... heehee
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resolution #3 ... really start thinking more about your professional development... you've been working now for 6 months... you know they like you and they aren't gonna fire you anytime soon. think about how to "move up".... start getting to work ON TIME and try to work MOST of the time. i know you stay busy... but your company is not paying you to surf the internet looking for the perfect night-stand. direct goal... have clear directions towards associate by next year (2008) or within 2 years of working at SWA.
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resolution #3.5 ... after you move in.... latest by Mid April.... initiate the ARE procedure. take advantage that you can start the ARE before IDP is done... before they change the law! and speaking of IDP... get the fucking thing done already... bend the rules a little even if you have to... in this situation the ends justify the means. Final registration by mid 2008... or 29th birthday.
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resolution #4 ... make more friends .... just because you have a boyfriend doesn't mean you don't need friends anymore. you've made some great ones... now really solidify those relationships but keep an eye out for new friends. esau is always meeting new people... tag along. you never know who you might meet... even your next boyfriend... haha... just kidding.
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resolution #5... re-connect with friends up north, maintain connections to the great high school and college and grad school friends i have made. we're all growing up but that doesn't mean we have to grow apart. one thing i like about ron is how he still talks about people he grew up with that he still sees.
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resolution #6... take time to take a pulse on "life" so far... what you've done and what you're goals are and where would you like to go and how to get there.
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resolution #7... seriously start thinking about quitting smoking for good. its hard when you're also dating a smoker, but maybe... awww... ya'll can quit together... haha. in general , just start being more considerate to your body. you're not 18 anymore.
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there's probbaly other shit too... but brrrr... its cold in here, there must be some resolutions in the atmosphere... haha (i just finished watching the cheerleading movie bring it on). anyways, i need to stop here, but it occured to me that i should review how my resolutions from last year went. till next time.
.
alas, he called me on monday afternoon at work. i missed his call but he left a message explaining that he was going to call sunday night but something last minute happened, but he wanted to make sure that i didn't think he was mad or anything (which i did... haha). i can't express how much that message made my day! we eventually touched base later that evening and had a looooong talk... probably the longest i've ever had with him on the phone (haha... an hour) but still... it was good. we got an opportunity to clear the air about the whole previous issue and then just talked about our weekends. he had his grandmother's 90th bday and attending to a whole cohort of old ladies... haha. i had my weekend filled with coming down with a stye in my eye, making me look like a goldfish in one eye (good thing he didn't come down) and also getting moderately burned on the neck... bumped into a hot light and the bulb fell on my neck and rotissering my neck a little.... FUN! but we talked... and after our conversation i just felt good and felt that i had weathered a storm of sorts.
.
we talked on and off through the week and then when he came in this weekend... this was a weekend we definitely needed... his roommate was not there! for three days it was pretty much just the two of us. it honestly was just... nice... you know... just nice. funny story, but i actually thought up the idea of getting a motel room friday night to ensure privacy... and we did... and it was actually kind of fun. later on we realized that the roommate may have not even been home this weekend. i dunno... maybe the stars were aligned or something and we had this weekend just to ourselves. we had dinner on friday night, spent the night together at the hotel. then saturday during the day went off and did our errands before watching a movie on saturday and then spending the night together again. sunday, we went to have brunch with esau and some friends... silly little couple... haha... and we went to IKEA because he needed a new desk. nothing really special but it was special because it was just him and me.
.
and funny revelation... apparently my concern about the roommate may resolve itself. apparently ron handed in his 30 day notice that he would not renew the lease on the house they rent together... so basically he's decided that he doesn't really need a place here in houston since he spends most of his time in Tyler anyways and he'd like to save some money also. he said that before i move in to my house in march, he'll just get a hotel room for the weekends and then when i do move in... well, he'll stay with me. in a weird way, i'm happy about this but weirdly concerned a little. but then again thinking through this... if "i" am the reason he's coming back to houston on the weekends... its obviously because he wants to be with me... otherwise he wouldn't come back.... and therefore doesn't need to rent a place... because why have a place, pay for it, when you only live there two days a week. of course.... i'm wondering how that will really make us somewhat of a "commuting" couple. well, it's worked in a way for three months... let's cross one bridge at a time as they say. and anyways... i've been spending every weekend he's here at his place.... its only fair i guess to return the favor. haha... it does make me happy to have a weekend boyfriend though.
.
in just a random moment i asked him "you know what yesterday was?" (yesterday was our three month "anniversary")... without a blink he said it was three months since we first met.. and he said he was going to mention it when we talked the day before... but since i didn't mention it, he'd just let it slide. haha... my man is sweet.
.
lying in bed one morning, i caught myself just looking at him sleeping and thinking how sweet he looked, and how sweet it was we were just there. obviously... i'm into this man. so i'm thinking i should have some "resolution" about ron... something like... i dunno.... haha... break my LTR record?.... which if we're conservative...i'd have to date ron for hmmm 3 and half months (god...sounds pathetic doesn't it? oh well) .... and if we're ultra conservative, me and ron have been only REALLY dating about two months... so hmmm... 1.5 months more... puts us at March 1. haha...
.
so resolution #1 (in no particular order of importance).... grow my relationship with ron... actively work on the things i know do not help a relationship... and work on the things that do help it. i think ron is a great guy and i could really be something special with... but i've realized.... it takes work, patience... faith. and if i can hold it out till March... or let's just say till i move into my house (march 18)... then i can have at least the selfish conceit that i have moved something of a step ahead in my search for a "mature" relationship.
.
resolution #2 (speaking of moving into my house)... learn to take a breather once in a while when it comes to the house. be comfortable with the idea that yes... you might still have to work out some details even after you move in... and that will be part of the fun of having your OWN place. if you get everything done... it'd get boring and you'd want to change it again... you know you would. so be OK, with just taking a break sometime... and do thing when you want to do them and if you don't... its OK. NEVER let it pull you down and NEVER EVER take it out on those around you that only want to help and care about you to begin with.
.
resolution #2.5 ... have a fabulous HOME when you move in... heehee
.
resolution #3 ... really start thinking more about your professional development... you've been working now for 6 months... you know they like you and they aren't gonna fire you anytime soon. think about how to "move up".... start getting to work ON TIME and try to work MOST of the time. i know you stay busy... but your company is not paying you to surf the internet looking for the perfect night-stand. direct goal... have clear directions towards associate by next year (2008) or within 2 years of working at SWA.
.
resolution #3.5 ... after you move in.... latest by Mid April.... initiate the ARE procedure. take advantage that you can start the ARE before IDP is done... before they change the law! and speaking of IDP... get the fucking thing done already... bend the rules a little even if you have to... in this situation the ends justify the means. Final registration by mid 2008... or 29th birthday.
.
resolution #4 ... make more friends .... just because you have a boyfriend doesn't mean you don't need friends anymore. you've made some great ones... now really solidify those relationships but keep an eye out for new friends. esau is always meeting new people... tag along. you never know who you might meet... even your next boyfriend... haha... just kidding.
.
resolution #5... re-connect with friends up north, maintain connections to the great high school and college and grad school friends i have made. we're all growing up but that doesn't mean we have to grow apart. one thing i like about ron is how he still talks about people he grew up with that he still sees.
.
resolution #6... take time to take a pulse on "life" so far... what you've done and what you're goals are and where would you like to go and how to get there.
.
resolution #7... seriously start thinking about quitting smoking for good. its hard when you're also dating a smoker, but maybe... awww... ya'll can quit together... haha. in general , just start being more considerate to your body. you're not 18 anymore.
.
there's probbaly other shit too... but brrrr... its cold in here, there must be some resolutions in the atmosphere... haha (i just finished watching the cheerleading movie bring it on). anyways, i need to stop here, but it occured to me that i should review how my resolutions from last year went. till next time.
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