Leaving Sex in the City
i've been noticing how my recent entries have been like a mini sex and the city drama of sorts.... oh what should i do? why is he doing that? what does it mean? what do i want? blah blah blah. so i figured it would be nice to devote a few lines to other things sans dating and ahem... lack of sex. anyways, so work lately has been to be honest... somewhat of a chore. they have me working on a potentially fabulous project but i'm doing sort of the real "intern" grunt work... not too sexy. i mean, the conversation i have with my supervisor border on the somewhat "charette" like... but then 95% of the time i am spacing out little CAD circles that represent trees. whoa... lots of fun. oh yes... i am also draw "bum-outs" for parking curbs as well... REAL fun stuff baby. anyways, for the first week i was on it i swear i was about to knock myself falling into teh computer screen because i was dozing half the time. this is also when my push to eat only "healthy" snacks at work (despite the plethora of processed packaged crap they have... although i should be greatful i guess) well... it went out the window in favor of some quality sugar high. so sad... and it unfortuanetly is begginning to show... fat ass, double chin. ok... maybe not that bad... but what happen to my six pack? arrrfff.
.
the recent weeks on this project though i think i've fallen into a kind of groove. teh project actually is easy to divide into half day's of work. so i frame it liek mini-projects which i am VERy good out... just a matter of how you look at things. i do "projects" that can be done in half a day... before lunch, before going home... and i feel pretty nifty about it. now i do have to admit, the after lunch catatonicism sometimes creeps in... but hey... thats where sugar high, compliments of my company come in. but in general, i am reall crossing my fingers that i can get bumped to some other project or at least some other piece of this puzzle... its just getting da da boring. hopefully soon they bump me over to some exotic locale... china... where art thou?
.
as with my attempt to stay free from the bad food at work, what has also been defenestrated has been my raquetball lessons. i just missed my third one in a row today... and the thing is... the past two times... i;ve actually been at the gym and could have gone... but i dunno... just didn;t feel it. instead i've gotten a sort of new routine... 30 minutes on the stairmaster until i am raining puddles of sweat... and then to go cook myself in the hot tub and do the steam room/sauna bit. i have to admit, the idea of being in a big pool of bubbly water with sometime good looking guys, mostly old and fugly though... is kind of a draw haha. one day in the sauna, these two REALLY old gay men were making jabs about giving blow jobs sans teeth..i.e... taking their dentures out. EEEEWWWW!! thatd efinitely was my cue to vacate the premises. but my lack of raquetball is a shame though... now if only i could find someone just to play around with... and to play with my afterwards in the hot tub. now i would go to the gym religiously if that was the case! haha.
.
in other news, a little word about my new found friend. i originally met jake about a few weeks after i got into houston... and at first, i thought it might be something romantic potentially. however, i think that was disspelled pretty early on and actually i am kind of glad it did. i mean, not that i wouldn't want it to happen, but jake is much better as a friend i think. why i say that is because he has an interesting personality... like this... i only just recently found out... after maybe 2 months of knowing him, that his real name isn't jake, jake apparently is just a name he uses for online purposes. HAHA! talk about missing the memo, he thought he did tell me, and that i just prefer to use Jake. well... after two months, that's exactly what i am going to use. and part of the other reason is he's "real" name is really strange... not particularly hard to pronounce or anything weird like that... but it just doesn't roll off the tongue well or something... so its just Jake. anyways, jake despite his foilable and idiosyncrasies, is a pretty genuine guym which i highly value in a person. he has some petty issues i think but don't we all. and its refreshing to also have him as an avenue to meet other people... some of them cool... some of them i could pass on.
.
we've gone to SoBe... the gay gay club here in houston, like twice so far, and that has been very much fun i think. and once in a while we do little things. in a way... its kind of how i picture a late 20 year old type friendship. we see each other pretty much only on the weekends, and even then, only every other weekend pretty much. but we keep in contact via IM from day to day... and its pretty cool. i'm still thinking though it would be interesting to hang out with him just one on one for once.... we've rarely done that, and the one time we did, we didn't say much, that was at the begginning of our relationship. now that we're more solid fixtures in each others lives, i'm curious about digging his brain a little and seeing if he has anymore secrets..... like i dunno... is that really his face on his head? haha. whatever the case, i think i can safely say i've at the very least made one "real" friend here. there has been a handful of potentials... but you know... its so hard to just rotate them you know... because they all don't know each other. i dunno, i sometimes wish, harking back to Sex and the City for a second, that i could have three other core gal pals that hang out together and have fabulous brunches together weekly... but also have rich individual lives filled with other people as well..... hmmm... that is TV.
.
family? well... my folks of late , especially my mom, are begginning to think i have an online addiction, that is.. just being addicted to online. haha... and it partly true. i spend MOST of my life in front of a computer for one reason or the other. of late, i've been consciously trying to put other things in front of my eyes like a DVD or oh my god... a book! partly because in spending so much time online, i have also been eating away at my sleepy time. i'm trying to go back to getting 7, preferably 8 hours of sleep... but at least i tell myself i must sleep at least 6...so its not totally out of control... on workdays! haha. i mean, i dunno..... there is a little bit of monotony to my schedule sometimes. 7 am wake, work by 8:30 am, lunch at 12-1, leave work at 6, go to gym, finish at 8, get home by 8:30, online till 12:30. Sleep. REPEAT. hmmm.... these are the years of your life... that shouldn't be wasted! well its not that bad... i am meeting people and having dinners or some event at least once a week of late... sometimes... really... my whole week is booked! i'm so popular!
.
haha... i didn't speak about my family at all? haha... well, they are just dandy really. parents not too much on my case. actually funny enough, i just has a little heart to heart with dad yesterday about being gay.... the discussion being very much leaning towards a positive tone i have to admit... which i am very glad about! but right now actually, they are so busy with the whole temple and new house thing (so they are buying a small house in dallas to live in while the big house/temple monstrosity is being built)... so they are doing very well. currently, i'm somewhat in their favor as well, as i just recently finished the bulk majority of that paper work i have been procrastinating on for like 3 months... and the funny thing was... it wasn't all that hard... i mean, maybe tops... 12 hours of work...spread across the 3 day labor day weekend. not bad at all! and at least now i won't feel bad when they bitch that i haven't done it yet. yeah, that's just the one thing i am concerned about... i am getting a little bit addicted to being online... i'd RATHER do it than anything else. hmmm.... prob not good. what i need is just more people relations... hence the dating.
.
ok i can't help myself... just a little smidge about my new interest. i'm begginning to doubt it will be unrequited love... boo hoo. he's been fairly reticent since we've met and the two times i;ve talked to him online since our first meet and referred to setting up a particular date... hmmm.. he's been somewhat... evasive... not direct at all... but not like... ok... i am free here here and here. haha... so i dunno. if i can't even get dinner, it will be a clear sign. but if i do, and after it, if i still feel unsure... i'm thinking it might be useful to just lay out the cards. i can't "play the game" with men i actually like strangely enough.... i just want to bare my soul and see if they will take me as i am. is this a good idea?
.
what would carrie and her friends say? now... back to Sex and the City.
.
posted by faux chink @ 10:00 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home