8.05.2007

My Peeps

its always nice when you realize that you've indeed made some real friends in a new town. ok, now i know houston's not really "new" per se to me... but i've only been REALLY living here about a year... so it is pretty new. anyways, what made me realize this was the other night when i decided, pretty much out of the blue to have another "get-together" at my house with my friends. i guess this old house of mine needed to see some other people, after that whole applie pie fiasco. oh speaking about that, esau and i are really doing just dandy right now. i mean, the way i see it now, is that are relationship is like that volcano krakotoa... most of the time its just a beautiful tropical island... but once in a while it gets ugly... but the thing is... if it didn't happen, the whole world would probably just explode from all the tension. so, as good of a way as it can be... i think esau and i's relationship just needs to boil over once in a while or two. not to justify anything that caused it of course... but well... i've realized we have to be "flexible" with our friends... not being a doormat or not expressing our dissent to their views... but flexible in the idea that everyone is a amalgam of different characteristics... and well, we still have to take them as a "whole".
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so anyways, i felt like sharing my latest culinary infatuation.... quiches. so i baked up basically a "meat-lovers" quiche and a vegetarian option and i also made a beautiful cake, that i think sammy might even proud of... evnthough the cake bread was box cake.... but the "recipe" was my creation.. in the sense i took the butter pecan cake and decided to add banans to it, and layer it with banana puree and jam with sugared walnuts. FABULOUS!
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it was just a lazy tuesday night and the guys started coming over. dinner went off without a hitch and even esau complimented the cake. he to be honest, has been VERY nice lately. i think his own sources reaffirmed that whatever the situation he took... his reaction to the apple pie was indeed.... rude. so i think eventhough he can't say i'm sorry... he's trying to make amends of some sort. so... after dinner and dessert esau brought this fun game over called catch-phrase... so the seven of us... esau brought his friend andy, a gregarious when drunk big black man (not the andy of the british couple.. who is a white twink waif haha) and i also brought favio.... the guy i had a date with a few weeks ago that didn't get me laid, bought the guy was nice and so i invited him over. it was a VERY fun night... and i hate to say it... but in a very adult mature way. i mean of course, we talked shit and were gross and explicit.... but hey we're gay men. the thing i am pointing to, is that it wasn't like college where people just got drunk and dumb. everything was very fun and laid back and not out of control.
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i was talking to hector though that for "southern decadence" or something... i would like to re-visit one of those experiences of getting completely piss drunk with lots of other piss-drunk people... haha. things to do (again) before 30! haha.
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so yes, the game was very fun. it basically entailed teams of people trying to guess a word that the machine spouted out by the explication of the person who got that word...except you couldn't use the word. it was very fun to play the game with two british people and a guy who had just started speaking english two years ago. later in the game, being gay men of course, we decided to get a little creative and made up our own words... mostly all sexually indicative... stuff like "felching" or "double dicking" ... come on you know what that is!. haha... it very very haha funny.
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anyways, long story made short... it was a great time with friends. and it was a nice feeling to feel like there were a group of people that shared their lives together. i know sometimes i can come off as being so independent or aloof as to not REALLY care about friends... but i dunno, i've always have had a nugget of insecurity when it came to friends so i think the aloofness was a self-defense mechanism. but a few things over the past few weeks have shown that i have made an effect on the people around me and that they do think of me in many situations. even esau, as hard-ass as he is... hector was saying that i should take it as a good thing, that he was so dramatic about the situation to begin with... meaning he cared enough to make a big deal about it. i'll take that.
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i was upgrading the photo frame that encased the picture of us from andy and kahl's dinner party almost a month ago and as i looked at the same photo with a nice frame around it, centered on my entry console's top... it occured to me that these were... in general... pretty good guys. everyone with their own quirks and things of course... and there is and always will be a bit of back talking and stabbing maybe haha.... but isn't that just human nature. none of us are saints... and to be honest... i wouldn't want a saint as a friend..... BORING. haha.
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